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[Aug. 3rd, 2006|09:30 pm] |
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U-M application came out today.
The online version. I started working on it. Some of the stuff I don't understand, or know what to put. Help please.
and I have to work on the counselor's letter. -- an extra step to kill me in the process.
P.S. -- I'm scared. |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 2nd, 2006|10:16 am] |
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Happy Birthday to me!
at 11:11 a.m. 17 years ago today, I was born.
*cheese*
Now if only I was turning 18 *rubs chin*. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 28th, 2006|05:35 pm] |
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I really don't want to continue to live. |
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| I'm Off |
[Jul. 9th, 2006|12:52 pm] |
So I'm off to the KCP program at U-M Ann Arbor `til Thursday ....
I will most definitely have a lot to write about then.
Wish me luck...
luv you all -- bye! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 4th, 2006|10:34 am] |
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Mildly and Temporarily better. |
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| All Away |
[Jul. 2nd, 2006|11:14 am] |
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I just don't feel like living anymore.
There's no point for me. The one thing I want is killing me and still I don't want to lose it.
Why do I have to have a heart? Why do I have to care about people? It's pointless really, it just gets you to the end of a dead-end street. Not many times have I wanted to discontinue my life but now is the time when everything I try so hard for fails and I can see my existence doing the same thing.
Why get good grades? No one cares. Why love someone? The feelings won't be shared.
I wish I could just be full of hate and be so blocked that no feelings could pass through my cold body. And don't worry all of you, believe me, it's not you.
A word of advice: don't care about anybody or anything ... that way you won't get hurt all the time. You'll be safeguarded from being a REAL human being ... and, well, isn't that what we all want? |
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| Uncontrollable |
[Jun. 25th, 2006|04:35 pm] |
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Right now I am soo pissed off at my family that ... man I don't even know what I feel like doing. I am sooooooooooooo FUCKING mad that I want to strangle someone ... literally.
One thing, one FUCKING thing for my birthday ... doesn't cost money ... would keep to myself ... damn .. it means the most to me and what the fuck do they say .... it's fucking inappropriate!
WELL FUCK YOU!!
I HATE GOING TO ALABAMA every year and leaving stuff behind that I wanna do ... and it's always around MYYYYYYYYYY FUCKING BIRTHDAY!! MINE!!! but of course they don't give a damn ... that's them. FUCK Jensen ... FUCK what she wants this summer because she has to go do shit on her birthday and doesn't even get what she asked for. I HATE YOU!
You tell me yes and then turn around and fucking take it back. Tell me that he can come with us ... shit we weren't even supposed to be staying that long. Now I have to go to the hell whole by myself ... I don't even really wanna go with Steph because I want to go with Domanique more than anything else. SHIT, no one trusts me ... they all think that I'm soo bad that I'm always doing stuff with him. No one likes him. I HATE THEM! They cannot accept who I am and who I like. Sure they act fucking fake but I bet you if he was white then they'd be like suuuuuuuuure lets have him come down here and stay for a fucking MONTH!
I wish I was 18. I wish I could go there by myself with him and without my family and just chill. Just fucking spend time with him because that's all I want to do. Not have sex. Not mess around. Just fucking spend time with him before he goes back to school! Because then I only get to see him some of the time and I have to worry about him being with someone else. SO FUCK YOU! Fuck you for not caring. Fuck you for doing the same shit you've always done. Can I not stay home for one summer?
I hate you because you don't trust me. I'M GOING TO BE SEVEN FUCKING TEEN and you don't care. I'm just 10 to you ... I'll always be ten. GOD I CAN'T WAIT TO MOVE OUT AND GET AWAY FROM THEM!!!
The one thing I asked for my birthday ... for Domanique to come to the Lake with us and they said it's inappropriate. FUCK THAT SHIT AND FUCK YOU. You'll get a nice dose of silence for the rest of the fucking summer. You wanna know about me ... fuck that ... you get to know nothing! I won't tell you shit. And, really, you deserve a whole lot more than that because you don't trust me. Never have I done bad shit and you wanna act like I can't even be at the lake with him for a week with fucking adult supervision.
FUCK YOU1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
I hate you! |
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| Philip |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|12:00 pm] |
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So I'm sure most of you know that P. Vails died yesterday. I got a call at midnight from Domanique telling me, and I cried some. I still really can't believe it...it doesn't seem real. He was just HERE.
That's why I don't want to waste anytime with any of the people I love. It's a really scary thought to me that any one of the people I care for could just drop dead and I would never be able to see them again. I really can't comprehend what his family must be going through.
So R.I.P. Philip. I love you and miss you.
I love you all .. and you're not allowed to leave me EVER. |
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| What A Thought |
[May. 31st, 2006|08:33 am] |
I don't know if you all have ever watched Hotel Rwanda but I suggest that if you have a strong stomach and a sense of injustice, that you do. |
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| Food For Thought |
[May. 25th, 2006|08:38 am] |
Chinese proverbs
Everyone eats and drinks; yet only few appreciate the taste of the food.
Doctrine of Mean, 4.2 by Confucuis
If you know, to recognize that you know,
If you don't know, to realize that you don't know:
That is knowledge.
True knowledge is when one knows the limitations of one's knowledge.
Confucuis
An inch of time is an inch of gold.
But an inch of gold can't buy an inch of time.
Learn without thinking begets ignorance.
Think without learning is dangerous.
--- Just pondering these thoughts. I'll come back to them and reflect. Oh and if you haven't guessed ... my new fascination is Chinese/Asian culture. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 24th, 2006|05:15 pm] |
I love you Jimmy and John! :-D Even if you are some pimps lol
I wanna see those pics!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 22nd, 2006|06:25 pm] |
so, I officially became a better person today. Look at my Michigan friends on Facebook and you shall see.
requested by ... and I didn't refuse.
*still in shock* Maybe it's time for me to let that grudge go for now. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 20th, 2006|10:39 am] |
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PISTONS = temporary LOVE |
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| Seniors |
[May. 19th, 2006|10:35 am] |
To all my senior friends. I love you all and wish you the best of luck in college.
You'll never know how much you've all helped me this year. Thank you. |
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| Marcus |
[May. 14th, 2006|11:25 am] |
Oh yeah, I saw Marcus Mimms at the mall yesterday.
*Random* |
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| CAR! |
[May. 11th, 2006|07:46 pm] |
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*does Irish jig* I got my car today! Drove it home!
YAY! Parking permit here I come.
:-D |
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| Boredom |
[May. 7th, 2006|09:39 pm] |
How Black are you?
[] You say nigga.
[ x] You wear big shirts.
[x] You listen to Rap and Hip hop.
[x] Your pants/skirt are low.
[x] You own Dickies.
[] You are in a Gang.
[x] You love Tupac.
[x] You love fried chicken.
[] You call white people crackers.
[] You own or want an escalade.
Total: 6
[x] You love jewerly.
[x] You keep your shoes clean.
[x] You represent your area code.
[x] Your usually in groups.
[] You love gambaling.
[] You stole something at least once.
[x] You ride bikes.
[x] You perfer plain teeshirts.
[] You own a pic.
[x] You have a old cd player.
Total: 7
[x] You at least tried to beatbox.
[x] You like love kool-aid
[x] You yell alot.
[x] You love parties.
[xxxxxx] You want to fight kill at least one person.
[x] You have your friends back.
[x] You love playing basketball.
[x] You watch BET.
[x] You watch MTV.
[] You have a cheap cell phone
Total: 9
[x] You understand Black gossip.
[x] You have black friends.
[x] You have an average house.
[] You live in a bad neighbor hood.
[x] You walk around alot.
[x] You call some people by nicknames.
[] You love attention.
[x] You curse all the time.
[x] You have your own unique handshake.
[x] You would pick up change on the floor.
Total: 8
[x] You are almost never home.
[] You have gotten beaten up.
[] You beated someone up.
[x] You talk crap and people talk it back.
[] You hate the police.
[] You carry or carried a weapon.
[] You spit in public.
[x] You wear wife-beaters.
[x] You can lean with it and rock with it.
[x] You can shake your butt like a black girl.
Total: 4
Overall Total: 35
Percent: 70%
Now add up your total and mulytiply it by 2 and thats how black you are.
Lmao now ppl can't say I act black.. It's only a C average. I'm me. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 7th, 2006|09:31 pm] |
People who went to Levey lol ... do you remember Brooke Johnson?
Well I saw her and Sharita on Friday. Brooke working at Ruby Tuesday's and Sharita at the AP History test.
Just thought I'd let you know I had a mini-reunion Friday. |
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| Sucked In |
[May. 7th, 2006|09:27 pm] |
Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours |
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